Separation Anxiety

Livi had a school project where you make a car out of cardboard boxes and the kids “drive” their cars all around school.  It was the cutest thing ever and her school did a fantastic job with the event.  They had a pretend car wash, gas station, car races and Livi’s favorite: the mechanic shop.  It was precious seeing her underneath this cardboard car intently hammering, screwing and who knows what else, underneath.  To top the festivities off they had a drive in movie theater complete with popcorn!  It was an incredible event for the kids.  

The creation of the car was a whole other story.  Livi settled her mind on a Rainbow Dash Batmobile.  Yes, you read that correctly.  Only Livi could come up with such a thing, and praise God for Pintrest ideas that helped make her dream a reality.  I spent well over 40 hours in making this car so that she could use it all of 30 minutes.  Total side note, different story for a different day, but God taught me so much about myself and my sin through the creation of this car!

The car has been sitting in the garage for weeks.  No one has touched it since the event.  Livi told me today that she was okay with it being thrown away.  I’ve been ready since 2am the night before the event while I was trying to finish the darn thing!  The car is a reminder of my sin of wanting recognition for myself and not for giving God the glory of his creation through me.  I am tired of looking at it every day and seeing nothing but ugliness in myself.  

So out to the curb it went.  And so did Livi.  No tears, just mournful hugging of the car, ready to see it go yet not so ready.  Our sin nature is the same.  We are soooo ready to get rid of our sin, so ready to get rid of the hurt it causes, yet not really wanting to let the pleasure of the sin go.  What sin are you holding on to today?  What sin have you taken to the curb yet are not quite letting go of?  I challenge you today, walk away.  Walk away, don’t look back, run if you have to.  God will be faithful to carry you through the separation anxiety.

* Side note, I love the ray of light shining down on Livi in this picture.  It’s like God is shining down comforting her.  God is there to comfort you too, all the time in all ways.  

Proverbs 4:25 – Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you.

Psalm 62:8 – Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.

1 Peter 5:6-7 – Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him because he cares for you.

Matthew  11:28 – Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.


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Expect Joy

Mom of two with a normal, crazy, messy life. There's never a dull moment in the Allmand house and that's probably a dramatic understatement. Looking forward to sharing and commiserating with you over our successes and trials in life!

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