We each go through phases in life. Phases of joy and times of sorrow. Phases of stress and times of quiet. Phases where we are close to God and times when we are far from him. The one thing we do know is that a phase is just that, a phase. No matter how hard it seems, we know it will come to an end.
Recently I’ve struggled with a phase of spiritual apathy. Life had become routine. Closeness with Christ had become routine. What I was already doing should have been enough, at least in my own mind. Reading, studying, leading, discipling, I mean, what more could I do?
I’m failing to follow. No, if I am being honest, I’m refusing to follow. I can give you any number of excuses: I am too busy, I am already doing enough, I just don’t want to, etc. Netflix is more appealing than quiet time with God. Accomplishing tasks on the to-do list is more important than engaging with others. God has been calling me to be present and engage with others, yet I choose myself and my wants instead.
Through this lesson I’ve learned a few important things:
- Spiritual apathy is not a phase. There’s no confidence that “this is just a phase.” (Proverbs 1:24-26)
- Sometimes we aren’t called ‘to do’; we are simply called ‘to be’. Be available. Be self-sacrificing. Be enraptured with Christ. Be faithful. Be still.
- God is merciful. He is faithful to those who love him (Deuteronomy 7:9). Confess and ask for a heart change, and God will be abundant in his grace and mercy.
- Pray, pray, pray. Start with baby steps in recommitting your all to Christ. Start with prayer; the rest will follow.
I pray that you are encouraged, knowing you are not alone in your journey and in your struggles. If you find that you are wandering, straying, today is the day to recommit to Christ. Lay it at the cross. He already knows how messy you are, and how messy you’ll be, and he decided that you are worth sacrificing his son on a cross for so that you may have eternal life with him in heaven.
James 2:5 – Listen, my beloved brothers, has not God chosen those who are poor in the world to be rich in faith and heirs of the kingdom, which he has promised to those who love him?
2 Thessalonians 1:11 – To this end we always pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling and may fulfill every resolve for good and every work of faith by His power.
John 15:16 – You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.
Daniel 12:2-3 – And many of those who sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake, some to everlasting life, and some to shame and everlasting contempt. And those who are wise shall shine like the brightness of the sky above; and those who turn many to righteousness, like the stars forever and ever.